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The sadness thread 04 Jun 2013 11:34 #11

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It feels very much ruined, yes. Most things I CAN still do require a ton of work and exercise, like when I have to use Fimo to make my own items. It's so much work anyway I don't think I can keep up with that. And about the dollhouse itself... ever since the nearest hardware store is 40 minutes away I can only convince my husband to go there once a year at best and most things I ordered online turned out to be not what I wanted. (E.g. I once ordered linoleum tiles for my kitchen and it wasn't obvious from the picture that they have anti-slip crinkles! UGLY - wouldn't even want that in my real kitchen!) I'm missing so many things to finish my rooms...
Couldn't get boards for new outdoor sets either because they were too heavy to carry by foot.

Aw, sorry to hear that. She doesn't react to treats either? Morrigan always forgot her fear of me when I showed her a sunflower seed, until she got used to me. But gerbils are not very shy in general and mine never had such a traumatizing start into life as your bunnies.
I keep my fingers crossed for you that she'll get over it and learns to trust you soon.

I'm sad because this website is driving me nuts. There are so many things that are still amiss, need re-coding or just don't exist and the effing coder still acts like a total nincompoop by ignoring me for 7 weeks now (he not even mentioned it on the TWO bd parties that were held here since then!) and I really learned to hate him. On top of that almost everyone else leaves me hanging.
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The sadness thread 18 Jul 2013 05:29 #12

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I'm sad because my health just won't seem to recover lately. I came down with Strep Throat about a month ago. For the last two weeks, the symptoms have flared back up. I missed two days of work on a week that I was already taking a day off for Reed's birthday party (but OMG my baby is two!!!). My days off seem to be just enough time for me to recover enough to survive the next set of work days. And I have been scheduled to sing with the Blues Society for two weeks now and haven't been able to handle it with my throat. I finally get an invitation to sing live in front of a band and my voice commits suicide.

And now I threw my back out. In the most stupid way possible. I was helping my boss close up the gift shop tonight and I reached down TWO INCHES to lift a rolling shelf over the doorjamb. There was a slight "pop" and now it takes two minutes of Tristin gently lifting and leading me to get to the bathroom. I broke down in tears multiple times when he took me a bit ago.
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The sadness thread 22 Jul 2013 10:57 #13

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I hope you'll feel better soon. When I have bouts of nervous cough from my hayfever hot milk with loads of honey helps better than anything else.

I'm sad because after 15 healthy years with me my husband's asthma is back. Currently he has it so bad that I can't sleep at night because in the time I need to take a breath he takes three and he whines in his sleep, claws at his chest and throws himself around and I can hear how his lungs close up. During days he sweats like a pig and wheezes although he claims he feels okay.
Today he finally gave in and went to a doctor (but only because I cried and told him how mortified I am that he might die in the night!). He got cortisone spray and a sickness certificate until at least Friday since it will damage his voice and throat, and the regular spray for asthma which he'll probably have to take each summer from now on. I hope it won't get worse and that it's not so bad that he'll have to get the 3-4 weeks cortisone treatment.
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The sadness thread 26 Jul 2013 13:02 #14

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It didn't get any better, rather worse. Today my husband got an even stronger med to open up his bronchia on top of the cortisone and the regular spray. He'll also get a lung x-ray and an in-depth check for diabetes since his blood sugar was way too high. We'll also make changes to our nourishment because he severly lacks iron.
Overall the doctor was quite shocked that he didn't feel better today. :(

Yesterday we had to ask a friend to drive us to the supermarket because dragging our weekly shopping back home by foot as usual for 30-40 minutes would not have been possible.
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The sadness thread 26 Jul 2013 16:13 #15

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Oh no ephie! D= really hope the extra stuff helps!
Sending all of the virtual hugs your way.
Up there just me and my shadow, no bass, no guitar, no tambourine. Then I found you like a melody, you were singin' in the same key as me. <3
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The sadness thread 03 Aug 2013 00:13 #16

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Poor guy. I hope he's doing better. You could try some herbal remedies to help as well. Horehound is a good anti-inflammatory and it takes like licorice. Passionflower is good. It also calms you down too so it can help with the stress that could cause an attack. Tumeric is supposed to act like a natural version of the cortisol too. If he tries any of them though, make sure to run it by his doctor to make sure it's safe with whatever they have put him on.
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The sadness thread 03 Aug 2013 12:39 #17

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Actually he was finally doing better, we were eben able to do some light shopping last week and his sleep was much calmer.
Yesterday he pinched a nerve in his side though while getting up from his armchair (at least he thought so), he couldn't sleep in the night from the pain, went to an emergency doc today and was promptly submitted to hospital because they found water in his lungs.
Mo will come in a few minutes to take me there, he's the only one with a car. I hope I haven't forgotten anything when I packed the bag for my hubbie.
Currently we're just confused and waiting for the test results. He hopes it's just for a few days, as the doc said he wants to make sure it's nothing big, but this is frigthening.

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I'm back for today. On top of the other pain the poor guy fainted when they took his blood, he just can't see his own blood. When we came he was on his second infusion and the pain killer was slowly wearing off. I hope they'll give him another injection so he can get some sleep now. We'll visit him again tomorrow.
So far the only thing we know for sure is that there is an inflammation within him that they haven't been able to locate yet. They made CT, EKG, x-ray, ultrasonic and blood tests and urine etc was still scheduled for later. On one they saw the water in his lung, on the other test they couldn't find it.
So far we don't know how long he has to stay in hospital or what exactly is the problem. The only thing they're sure of is that his muscles and nerves are all okay so that can NOT be why he is in such pain today.

I'm so... I dunno. It's the first time I'm alone in our flat. And it's also the first time that I have to take responsibility. If he has to stay in hospital for longer I have to buy him some new pjs and see about the food shopping and everything. I admit it's scary. But I'm a big girl. The worst is the worry, of course. He is so afraid of hospitals and doctors anyway, even without being ill himself. >.< He was white as a wall and always kept a little handkerchief on his arm so he doesn't have to see where the infusion needle goes in.
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The sadness thread 04 Aug 2013 01:01 #18

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Oh ephie! Well wishes and everything going your way!

<3
Up there just me and my shadow, no bass, no guitar, no tambourine. Then I found you like a melody, you were singin' in the same key as me. <3
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The sadness thread 04 Aug 2013 18:02 #19

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Of course I decide to disappear when you all can use the mental support the most.
I feel so sorry for you both Eph. It's like you two barely have had a peaceful day lately. I hope they find what's going on soon and that your husband can leave the hospital soon!
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The sadness thread 05 Aug 2013 10:24 #20

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I can sure use all the mental support I can get... My husband was just diagnosed with pulmonary embolism. They called the specialist to take over. He was forbidden to get up, has to lie down all day now despite the pain, and he said "they pump something into him".

We looked up what that illness means and I thought I'd faint when I read that it's nr.3 on the list of severe illnesses that people die of. I'm just glad that they found it out in time, before he just died on some street.
Asthma, my butt!
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The sadness thread 05 Aug 2013 12:32 #21

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OH MY! =O I'm sure glad they caught it too!
Thinking of you ephie. <3
Up there just me and my shadow, no bass, no guitar, no tambourine. Then I found you like a melody, you were singin' in the same key as me. <3
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The sadness thread 05 Aug 2013 13:40 #22

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oh gosh, its just one thing after another isn't it? I hope hubbie feels better soon! :gD
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The sadness thread 14 Mär 2014 03:38 #23

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I'm sad because my family just can't seem to get ahead of things. It looked like we were going to see the light. My husband got a new job (driving school buses) and I picked up a part time job in the evenings. I had a whole bunch of bills pegged to catch up on with the new money flow. And then in a freak accident on Tuesday night my husband slipped opening the window in our bedroom and put his hand through it. He's stitched up but he has to see a specialist to repair the tendon he ripped. Now he can't drive until it's healed. Luckily my new part time job is keeping us afloat. He's on happy pills and can't use his right hand. So I've been running ragged trying to work both jobs and take care of the kid and him.
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The sadness thread 14 Mär 2014 11:12 #24

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Ouch!

I'm sad because our lives are so chaotic lately and all I can think of is that we might have to move to a new city quickly out of the blue. That makes it impossible for me to enjoy anything I do since every item I create is one item more that has to be moved and everything I buy to make myself happy rather makes me feel bad since it addes to the stash. I can't find enjoyment in anything and I can't sleep well either because there's so much going on and I just feel overrun.

And I'm sad because I wasted 2 hours yesterday watching Coppola's "Bram Stoker's Dracula". In my own, totally personal opinion, that was one of the worst movies of all times. And I saw a terribly bad, shitty "Lovecraft story" movie right before that which would have made Lovecraft cry, so that I liked Dracula even less was quite a shock.
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The sadness thread 15 Mär 2014 03:15 #25

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That movie is one of the worst interpretations of Dracula ever. Why on earth would you cast a dead fish (Winnona Ryder) and a 2x4 (Keaunna Reeves) in the leading roles? They've got about three facial expressions between the two of them. It's worth it to watch though, because Gary Oldman and Anthony Hopkins know they're making a terrible movie, and ham it up. Their performances are wonderful.

Don't feel bad taking a couple of hours of me time. It's what keeps you sane.
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The sadness thread 15 Mär 2014 08:55 #26

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Nope, for me sadly it wasn't worth watching sodomy rape p*rn combined with an utterly unbelievable "love" story between two horny freaks instead of the horror movie I expected. Oldman and his role both disgusted me and I've never seen a sillier VanHelsing. For me Reeves was the slightest problem of that movie - at least he blends into the wall.
Love my German Dracula audio drama - it's a hundred times better and true to the book. Especially Mina was such a fantastic character in that one, not a slut like all the other women in that movie.
Mary Shelley's Frankenstein, with Robert de Niro and Kenneth Brannagh, had its silly moments too but it was much more touching and more true to the book. I had expected the same from Dracula, silly me. Lesson learned: Never believe something is true to a book just because it carries the author's name. Should have learned that from all the terrible "Lovecraft" movies already, actually.

What's worse, I slept terribly due to that movie for two nights in a row now and don't want to be touched anymore. So that's my sadness for today, more headache due to lack of sleep.
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The sadness thread 01 Apr 2014 13:20 #27

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I'm sad because Sailor Moon is on tv again (after over 10 years!) but the channel was replaced by another one in my region and thus is out of reach for me.
They also finally released the series on dvd but Germany is the only country in Europe where they cost twice as much as elsewhere AND they didn't update the episodes. The dvds come with the old German version in poor tape quality and with the remastered version in Japanese.
So no Sailor Moon for me unless the dvds get cheaper in some years. :(
(I refuse to pay 55,- Euro for HALF a season! Paid 22,- for a WHOLE brandnew season of Downton Abbey and only slightly more for Big Bang Theory and Bones! 55,-, anime has just crazy prices over here. *shakes head*)
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The sadness thread 01 Apr 2014 14:49 #28

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Wait, is this the old series or did they finally start airing the new one? I've been waiting for that for two years but they keep pushing it back. It's enough to make you tear your hair out.
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The sadness thread 01 Apr 2014 15:04 #29

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Don't know anything about the new series except for one comment by Lirael or you a long while ago.
I'm talking about the old series which was never available on dvd over here and wasn't shown on tv for a long time because the license holder demanded outrageous fees. It was digitally remastered in Japan a while ago.
Actually I'm mostly interested in the first season. That one was good, then it went downhill. Hubbie and me stopped watching when it got just too annoying (sometime before the Sailor Stars appeared). I guess I'll put up a request in the news - maybe someone records it on VIVA and is willing to make me a copy. Don't have much hope though. -_-
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The sadness thread 05 Mai 2014 10:27 #30

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I'm sad because...

- I fell down on my way to the doctor today and sprained my ankle. Now I sit here with an ice pack and wait for the swelling to get better but it's hard to sit at my desk.

- although my back has several deformities and they even found that I once had a hemiated disc (which was neither diagnosed nor treated) the doctors say I'm all right. Which means I'll get no help with my hurting back and neck. They suggested doing exercise to strengthen my muscles.

- the pills I bought for a slight chance to ease my tinnitus actually made it worse. I'm so sick of having headaches every day and of running into walls (or falling down, as today!) due to being dizzy. Got an appointment to check it out on Thursday.

- my mainboard must be damaged since my computer spontaneously freezes every now and then.
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The sadness thread 19 Jun 2014 03:54 #31

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I am sad because...

lying in hospital with screws in my flesh to keep my broken leg in place until the swelling goes back for final surgery just is not fun.

Where is the rewind button for my life?

I cannot sleep here and i keep dreaming of that moment when my foot pointed backwards.
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The sadness thread 16 Aug 2014 17:10 #32

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Wait wait what? What happened?
*Finds German thread.*
Argh, I should have started working on the on-line course German I paid for.
Eph, it seems you can finally start to work toward walking now? Good luck! I'm glad your leg seemed to have healed okay, my father wasn't that lucky a few years ago. :( Get well soon!
I'm sorry I disappeared for so long (again), some stuff happened, yada yada not really important, except that Vlegel and Muis are doing well!
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The sadness thread 17 Aug 2014 17:07 #33

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Aw, so good to hear from you again! *virtual hug although I know you don't like that* ;D

Yes, it's 7 weeks after the second surgery and I can finally start to exercise some walking. I'm allowed to put 50kg of strain on my leg now and by the end of next week I'm officially allowed to try walking without crutches.
There are two steel plates and almost a dozen screws in my leg and the last x-ray looked very good. Pain is getting less and less almost daily now - finally, as no pain killer worked and I suffered really a lot.
I'm still trying to catch some of the sleep I missed in the last 2 months (a truckload of it!) but decided that next week I'll try to work on the website again. I need some distraction from the fact that my husband's work contract ends in 1.5 months. -_- All I can do is proofread his job applications - even the housework is still totally on his shoulders due to my darn leg.

Glad to hear your pets are fine. ^^
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The sadness thread 22 Aug 2014 10:35 #34

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's Okay, virtual hugs don't get on my nerves. :P

I'm so glad it heals okay! Good luck to your husband!

I got reason to be sad because a parcel has disappeared and I don't think I can trust the sender to get after it even though it's their responsibility. I don't care about the money (it wasn't much) but the books are relatively hard to find.
Also, the storytellers of the past had no idea how much sexual assault they put into their stories. Not to mention the huge amounts of racism and sexism. Old stories can be amazing, but you have to wade trough 20 others who make you lose your faith in humanity.
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The sadness thread 11 Jan 2016 10:17 #35

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(Don't know how I missed this post back then but I wholeheartedly agree with your viewpoint on sexual assault, although imho modern storytellers often seem to know but still not care.)

I'm sad because David Bowie is dead.
2016 starts out really bad, first Lemmy Kilminster (although I'm not a fan of his music, but he was an astoundishing character and my husband was a fan) and now Bowie.
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The sadness thread 14 Jan 2016 16:34 #36

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Nooooo! Alan Rickman died too!
And in the same way as Bowie - 69 years old and died of cancer.

I'm devastated. I loved so many of his movies... Harry Potter, Sweeny Todd, Dogma, The Transporter... :(
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